anger is a gift

dearest blog,

during my school days, i listened to rage against the machine (now disbanded) almost every other day. the frontman (zack de la rocha) once quoted “anger is a gift” in one of their song that i cannot recall its title. back then, it was just a mere statement from a bunch of people who hated the system they lived in and can do nothing about it but now the quote has somehow coming to the sense. to me personally, to have anger is good but to excessively abuse it will just do more harm than none.

i am angry, angry at myself who cannot control my angst. holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; but in the end i am the one who gets burned. the words are more or less like that. spiritually i am burned. physical can never reflects the emotion that you had inside as to smile is easy but to really mean the smile is not.

anger and stress walk in parallel. when the stress is in you, anger just ticks waiting for the moment to explode and i stupidly explode yesterday. i shouldn’t have exploded, i never should but i did and i really regret it. i lost to the stress that i am experiencing right now. my body is stressed, my mind stressed even more and i am lost in the battle with myself…anyone can become angry – that is easy, but to be angry with the right person at the right time, and for the right purpose and in the right way – that is not within everyone’s power and that is not easy.

anger is the most impotent of passions. it effects nothing it goes about, and hurts the one who is possessed by it more than the one against whom it is directed. anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. it’s a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you’re hurt. maybe, anger is not a gift anymore. it’s a curse to be born until the end.

p/s: don’t hold to anger, it steals your energy and keep you from love.